At the beginning of each year I share a word that I will focus on. 2017 was a year of change for me. I set the tone myself at the beginning of last year by choosing the word “metamorphosis”. It’s a challenge to even begin to describe the ways I have changed, and I have certainly surpassed what I had even hoped for.
The obvious change, but perhaps the least important, has been my sixty pound weight loss that I accomplished throughout the year. While there are many that would point out the obvious health benefits to having done so, it is still isn’t my biggest change. Along with extra weight, I had cloaked myself in a lot of insecurity, doubt, and bitterness, and shedding those negative things was a lot tougher than anything else.
Along with those changes, I took big risks. I traveled halfway across the world alone to spend a week with strangers. I have still been holding that journey close and have not yet shared what I learned and how that week contributed to my change, but I may be ready soon.
I let go of people in my life that did not bring positivity. I nurtured my relationships with the people into my life that made me most happy. I set firmer boundaries with people who took too much, and learned to say no. None of it was necessarily easy, but it made my life better.
I’ve emerged lighter spiritually, which may sound dramatic, but the positivity has spilled over into every aspect of my life. I am not trying to pretend I’m perfect, I still struggle with feelings of insecurity and comparison, but I am committed to continuing to let go of those feelings. This year I’m choosing a word that I feel is next in the natural progression of my journey. “Grow” may have been the obvious choice, and I did love the mental picture it brought for a year full of earthy green colors on my vision board (yes, I almost chose a word based solely on colors) and spiritual growth. However, I decided to push myself a step further, out of my comfort zone, and this year I will “blossom”. I think blossoming is a little bit more scary, and a little more colorful and vivid than my natural inclination. A blossom is vulnerable and open.
This year, that is what I’m going to be. I’m going to be vulnerable and share more of myself with you. I’m going to get in front of the camera rather than just being the one behind it. I’m going to take big risks and dare to go after my dreams. However, I’m also going to put my blinders on to what others are doing, because:
A flower does not think of competing to the flower next to it. It just blooms.― Zen Shin
I’ve learned that the quickest thing to drag down any goal is comparison, so that is something I’m letting go of most this year.
I hope that you will join me for this year and all of the changes and blossoming it will bring. The things in the pipeline for this year are my most exciting (and nerve-wracking) yet. I wish I could be less vague, but that is the point I am at in the process- it is too premature to share more specifically! I wish you the very best for this year, and I hope that it brings all you wish to accomplish.