It’s been a long time since I shared a personal post with you all, and I thought this post would be a good opportunity. Sometimes I just feel overwhelmed by all of the things going on in my life both personally and professionally, and I usually just freeze up and avoid blogging. This time I’m going to write through the overwhelmed feeling, and share what’s on my mind and a bit of my heart today. Hopefully it allows you to see a little bit of me, Nina, the actual person behind this blog!
I have been attending conferences and other blogging and small business events for years at which I have heard the same advice that “video is the future of blogging” and “YOU are your brand”. If my own YouTube-obsessed children are any indication, the future is going to be highly visual, and people will rightfully want to see more of a person than just the projects on a particular blog.
I get it, I really do, I just have one issue… I am desperately camera shy. I don’t mean in a “Meh, I don’t love the camera” kind of way. I mean in a cold sweats, instant sour face, completely un-photogenic way. Mack took the photos for this post, and I drove him crazy by making him show me each one so I could analyze it and correct my terrible default expressions (I’m not always mad, I swear!).
The solution may seem simple: why be on video? Why even get in front of the camera? It seems obvious, but it isn’t so cut and dry. I want to propel my business and my brand forward, and I know that there’s truth in the concept that doing so involves sharing my actual self. In essence, I want to have the confidence to be in front of the camera and on video because I want to continue to be successful. I want it to not be a hangup for me internally when a magazine reaches out and asks me to pose in an article. Country Living simultaneously thrilled and terrified me today by sharing this article. While I don’t think a TV producer will actually be knocking on my door anytime soon, what if it did happen? What would I say?
For sure, part of my issue is body confidence. I don’t go into it a lot on here, but my weight and body image is something I have struggled with my entire life. Right now I am actually at one of my healthiest sizes since having children. I completed a Whole30 that turned into more of a Whole90. I relapsed a bit this summer (wine and pizza happened), but I surprisingly haven’t regained much, if any, of the 30 pounds that I lost. I know I can try harder, and I certainly need to be more active. When I look in the mirror (or at a photo) I am terrible to myself. I know, from a logical perspective, that this is likely only compounding the issue.
A large part of feeling confident, regardless of body image, is having a well-developed sense of personal style. Up until recently, I’ve operated under the backwards mentality that I would wait to figure out my personal style until I reached my target weight and size. Finally, over the summer, with the Haven Conference approaching and other blogging events on the horizon, I knew I needed to just buckle down and figure out my personal style, so that I could have some clothes and accessories I felt comfortable in, regardless of my comfort level with my current size.
As luck would have it, I was deeply immersed in my rebranding at the time, and working my way through Fiona Humberstone’s How to Style Your Brand (which I highly recommend if you’re a small business owner, but more on what I learned another day). My personal style was already very much at the forefront of my brain. As a result, I sort of reverse-engineered my wardrobe and accessories. I actually took cues from my home decor and brand in order to find the colors and patterns I would feel most comfortable in wearing. It was a process that made sense to my brain, and it worked perfectly for me- I have never been so comfortable with my clothing style. I finally curated a small collection of clothing and accessories that I absolutely love and that give me a much-needed confidence boost.
When JORD reached out and asked me to share one of their beautiful wooden watches, I knew it would be a good fit for me in the midst of this journey. I love wood jewelry, and the Frankie Watch in Zebrawood and Champagne fits my brand perfectly. The wood is very reminiscent of the dark stained hardwood throughout our home, and the champagne face reminds me of the off-whites I always choose for furniture and linens.
Like the rest of my recent wardrobe acquisitions, I took cues our home decor, which is something that comes much more naturally to me. While I have a long way to go before I feel one hundred percent comfortable in my skin, I feel like I’m definitely making progress.
JORD is also offering to give you a $75 credit toward one of their watches (one person will win the $75 credit, but everyone receives a $20 coupon code!).
Contest closes 8/29 at 11:59pm
Thank you so much for letting me share today! It’s always hard to put myself out there in a major way, and I know this isn’t something that just I struggle with. I appreciate that you give me a place to feel comfortable to do so, a home base if you will. Essentially most of us just need to take a pause and be kinder to ourselves, and make sure to stop and treat ourselves well no matter what point we are at in our personal journey.
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